Sunday, September 16, 2012

12 Weeks





So here I am.  Twelve weeks pregnant with twins.  Talk about a whirlwind of freaking emotions.  I think the coolest thing so far has been how much our Lord's name has been glorified through announcing the life of these two precious little ones.
We were simply blown away by the response of everyone on facebook, this blog, phone calls, texts, and neighbors running into our house as soon as we announced it.  And there seemed to be a common theme.  No words, tears, and praises to God.  How cool is that.
We have been told that they are identical twins because they are in the same sac with one placenta.  So I did what they tell you not to do and started googling.  I came across crazy statistics of how uncommon this is, and then scary statistics of what could possibly happen.
At ten weeks, they could not find a membrane separating them which led us to see a specialist a week later.  That was somewhat of a long week.  We knew the risks involved if they couldn't find a membrane.  We read the statistics of survival.  I've discovered that statistics mean nothing to me anymore.
So we prayed.
At eleven weeks they found the membrane.  They were identical in size, and their heart rates were 178 and 180.  They were absolutely perfect.  They are classified as identical twins, mono-di, meaning they have two sacs but one placenta.
As for me and how I am feeling, it really hasn't been too bad.  It feels a lot like my pregnancy with Tucker.  I feel nauseous but don't throw up.  Nathan refers to me as a bear in hibernation so I guess I might be sleeping a lot.
One hard part is feeling as if my grief and hormones have had a head on collision.  It's hard to control your crying when you actually have something to cry about.  My ability to stay poised and collected while in public has gone out the window.  I was a weeping mess at church today.  We sang "Jesus Paid It All" which is the song we sang at Tucker's funeral.  We also sang "10,000 Reasons" which gets me going too.  Give me a song, a message, or a verse about Heaven and I'm on the verge of jumping up and down with excitement while being moved to tears.
Thank you all, for continuing to love us.  Thank you for praying for us and these special little blessings.  I think about heaven a lot and words cannot explain my excitement for eternity.  To see my Savior, my little boy, my whole family to be reunited, and then to think about getting to spend everyday with all of you lovely people....it's just wonderful.

15 comments:

  1. You are beautiful! I seriously tell people who don't even know you the story of God's amazing faithfulness to you :) Praying for continued health for those perfect little ones!

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    1. Thanks leslie :) He is pretty amazing isn't he..

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  2. You look adorbs pregnant! Praying for you and those little sweet babies!!!!!!!

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  3. I've been following your story since your precious Tucker went to see Jesus. When I saw your post about your pregnancy, I literally yelled out loud and then burst into tears. I can only imagine the journey you're on and I am amazed at how you are leaning on the Lord throughout it all. You are an inspiration. Praying for you and your new little ones.

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    1. I can't tell you how much this means to me...thank you :) I yelled out loud too when I found out!

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  4. Congratulations! I have followed your journey since your precious Tucker went to heaven. I was blown away to check in today and see you are having twins. What a miracle! :) God Bless!

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    1. Thank you so much....it truly it crazy what He has done. :)

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  5. I came to your blog thru another blog and I have followed you since the day I read your heart breaking news. I only follow about 3 blogs and you are one that I get excited about a new post because I know that God will speak to me thru you. It has happened during and after every one of your writings. Tucker's life has been used sooo much by God to reach so many people. Tears came to my eyes as I read the news of your twins. I quickly had to tell a friend of mine your news because it filled my heart with so much joy. I pray for you and your family and I look forward to the days ahead to read your thoughts and inspirations as you travel thru this journey.

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    1. I can't tell you how sweet this is and how much this touches my heart. Thank you so much for your words and prayers....truly uplifting.

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  6. I ran across your blog awhile back through a friends. I'm 33 weeks pregnant with mono-di twins! They couldn't find the membrane with our girls until 12 weeks, so I know the worry and fear that it brings. Advice: don't read much about mono-di twins either! ;) Trust your doctors and I know you will be monitored often! You will be spoiled by all the ultrasounds! You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Would love to answer any questions!

    Amy
    doubletheblessingadamsfamily.blogspot.com

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    1. Amy, I just wrote you back on your blog...:) Congrats on sweet baby girls!

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  7. Amy-
    I know we do not know each other but I have been praying for you and your sweet family! I was so excited when I read you were expecting again!

    What an inspiration you are!

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    1. Thank you so much and I truly mean it....we are so humbled by the outpour of love. :)

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  8. I have been reading your blog since Tucker went to Heaven. I am so excited for you and your husband...twins are an incredible blessing that so few get to experience. You will love seeing two little ones that are so similar, yet so different. I swear my girls were born BFFs. :) Praying for a healthy and uneventful pregnancy!

    (Mommy to 15 month old mono/di twin girls!)

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