My world has been turned upside down in the best possible
way. I have twin boys and I have
absolutely no idea what to do 80% of the time. I love it.
Gideon and Maximus are 3 months old and at their last
appointment they had both made the charts for their actual age in weight and
head circumference. Gideon was
almost at 10 lb. and Maximus was over 10 lb.
They eat 4 oz every 3 hours but will go about 4-5 hours at
night. That’s pretty much where
their schedule begins and ends.
They sleep so much during the day that I just let them sleep. Play time usually turns into crying
time because they both like to be held when awake. This is part of that 80% where I have no idea what to do
when this happens.
I attempted to hold both of them at the same time the other
day by using the BrestFriend pillow, and we got stuck. I almost had to call my neighbor/friend
Amber to come help me get them down to safer ground.
I truly feel like they just came from heaven. They are so special and my heart feels
as if it’s going to burst at times.
I’ve had people ask if it’s healing.
I knew all along that a baby is not going to replace the
pain. It won’t replace him. It won’t erase the trauma that still
creeps into my mind at times.
But it brought about a joy that is riding alongside this
journey with my pain.
The boys have been doing great with very few health
concerns. Gideon still has a small
hole in his heart but the cardiologist is not worried. It is in a muscular area which should
most likely grow back. He is also
still on his apnea monitor which I am surprised I haven’t thrown through the
window yet. He should be getting
off of it this month due to no more episodes.
Max is free of health concerns. He tends to be the one that thrives more quickly while Gideon
isn’t one to show off.
Max has actually rolled over a handful of times starting at
about 2 months old. It is usually out of defiance when placed on his tummy.
Our pediatrician told us to still stay inside with no
toddlers coming near them until their 4 month appointment. This has been extremely difficult but
then I guess going to target with 2 babies, one being on an apnea monitor that
goes off randomly for no reason, might be kind of difficult too.
I actually googled “how to take twins to Walmart.”
People have been so great and I am so thankful. I have a huge pile of thank you cards
sitting on my table that I work on every time I get a moment. My issue is finding all the addresses
now. Just know that if you haven’t
received one that you are not overlooked.
I am just a hot mess right now but will iron this out shortly.
Max and Gidoen:
You are loved beyond words not just by me, but more
importantly by your heavenly Father whom I am confident just sent you to
me. I see you staring around your
room and I am sure you see your angels.
This world can be scary, the unknown is scary, but no matter the
outcome, we have assurance in heaven.
Everyday I pray that whatever our journey is, your lives will be used to
bring glory to His name.
