Life Lately

So this past week has been unexpected.  That pretty much sums up life right now but I'm okay with that.  I've managed to turn 29 years old, babysit my newest nephew Ven in the ER while doctors tried to figure out what was wrong with my sister, take Ven to his first pediatric appointment, admit Ven into Washington Regional due to jaundice, pray hard for God to heal my sister, attend baby Meryn's memorial service in Little Rock, make it through Mother's Day without my little boy, and then praise God for healing my sister so she could spend mother's day with her little boy. 

There were times when I would sit there almost saying "really God" but then I envisioned Him saying back "yes, really Amy." 

That book I am reading, What Women Fear, Angie talks about Job's response to God, but what is even funnier is God's response to Job's response.  God responded to Job, "Where were you when I laid the earth's foundation?" 

There were a lot of triggers this past week.  But life still went on.  I continued to breathe, I continued to wake up each morning, I continued to laugh at times, I continued to cry at times, I continued to pray, I continued to ask God to be near.  He continues to be faithful so I am trying my hardest to do the same. 

If you have been around us lately, it is hard to escape a conversation where we have the whole group talking about heaven.  God has been revealing himself to us in ways that I never experienced before.  There used to be a disconnect when thinking of heaven and what it "might" be like and how it "most likely" will be really great.  He has opened our eyes through books we have read, dreams He has given us, and just plain showing up when we ask Him. 

I have gone back and tried to read some of my posts with an unbeliever perspective.  Just in case there are any out there.  I think the hardest part to grasp is how can I remain faithful when I prayed for Him to specifically not take my son, and He still did.  Honestly, I don't have an answer for that. 

All I know is that this is not our home, and I have never been so thankful for that.    

Please Pray

"Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His godly ones."  Psalm 116:15

I spent the majority of the day praying yesterday.  I prayed specifically for the Lord to perform a miracle and save Meryn Grace McCall.  Some dear friends in our community group, Adam and Joanna, were 22 weeks pregnant with their healthy baby girl and she went to be with Jesus yesterday. 

As I found out the news, all I could was cry and beg Jesus to cover them like He has covered us.  I asked Him to cradle Meryn in his arms, and I asked Him to allow Tucker to show her around. 

Adam texted Nathan after she passed and said, "I told Meryn to say hi to Tucker."

Nathan and I are heartbroken for our friends and are committed to praying and being there for them as they have been for us.  I have personally experienced the body of Christ and how powerful we can be as we pray together.  I'm asking you to pray with me for these parents who lost their child. 

We have been so fortunate and blessed to be part of an awesome community group.  At one point yesterday, Nathan kind of smiled and said, "it's kind of crazy that we have our group on both sides now."

I smiled at that thought.  Not gonna lie though, kind of jealous of Meryn and Tucker's side.